You ever miss your friends? The ones you used to be with every hour of every day? You ever let time pass by only to realize that you’re out of the loop on the latest and greatest details of their life? You know you’ve drifted apart when you start conversations with, “how are you”? Because if you were still close you would know exactly how they were and your question would be more like, “yoooo did you see how rude Lo was to Audrina”?

You ever feel neglected by your friends? The ones you now spend most of your days with? You ever hear about somewhere they went and feel like “geeze I don’t recall getting an invite”. It kinda, sorta, really does suck you know. You start to wonder if they’re even thinking about you. You start to think that you’re not as great of an importance to them as you thought you were. It feels icky when you’re left out.

Birthdays are meant to be spent with your friends. This year isn’t looking so good on that end. It’s kind of a bummer really and has me feeling like I should have been born in the beginning of the summer. Every year I get the same response from past and present friends (some, not all). With school around the corner and summer funds running out it’s understandable that the well has run a little dry so I can’t help but feeling discouraged that this year’s monumental birthday won’t be celebrated as such. I’m going to be 25. It’s a beautiful age really and I don’t feel a day over 21. So you can see why I want this one to be specialer (lol) than all the rest!

I’m hopeful still. I wouldn’t be Crystal Clear if I wasn’t. Maybe it will turn out great. Maybe it will be the greatest one in 25 years! Maybe.

I’ll let you know how it goes. Or if it goes at all.

TTYL

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