My First Time
August 26th 2008 would mark the first time I read my poetry out loud. That moment was one of the most mind blowing moments ever. My heart was ready to thump right out of my chest and into the front row. I’m definitely going to do it again. Maybe I’ll see you there for one of those times and you can watch me do me. For now here’s a small look at what I performed.
I wonder what it will be like
The first time it comes close to my lips
Will I grab the challenge firmly
or start softly like a kiss
Will I shy away timidly
Afraid to really blow it
and if I freeze on the spot anticipating
I’m hoping my hidden talent will take over.
Will the one I love support me
As he yearns to see me breathe
Will I dare to star him in his eyes
While my heart slowly picks up speed
and if my hair falls in my face
is it the part of the experience?
Will my stomach start to feel slightly queasy
from how strongly he’s resonating from my pace?
Will I move into the light confidently
with crazy thoughts racing through my head?
It’s getting harder, and harder
I can see it
the shiny top of that black head.
Your first time is a lot of pressure you know
You can never prepare enough
but I heard you should drink a lot of water
so your mouth doesn’t get dry or rough
All my girls told me to just to do it
once I start I won’t want to quit
and even though they swear they’ve never done it before
you can never be too sure
what goes on whe the lights are dimly lit
So I shouldn’t be so shy they said
Eventually, I’ll get it right
and when you see him gazing at you intently
Girl, that’s how you know the ending is in sight
But just like that, it’ll be over
Especially on your first time
Everyone will be surprised you took it there
Something like a standing ovation in the sunrise.
I want you to think about my words
and the images I just painted
Can you imagine what I expressed to you?
I hope I didn’t make the moment tainted
I encourage you all when you go home tonight
to think about how I just made history
‘Cause see, I can imagine what you THOUGHT I meant
But I was just talking about MY FIRST TIME
grabbing the mic
and reciting…my…poetry.
hahaha, your crazy for this one Crystal!!!
What I like most about this piece is how you take the reader through an emotional roller coaster. It starts off seemingly innocent, then it drops and get’s more intense, and then just when you get comfortable and think you know what’s going on, you take us for a twist at the end:)
A very well written, and immensely visual piece. I can imagine it must have been an adrenalin rush, not only for you to hear your soul aloud, but for others to receive it as well.
Cheers,
Keep dem words colliding:)
My favorite rite here…I was fortunate enough to be there and hear this live. Crys for your first time you delivered proper gurl, its like you went up there strong and confident and you spit your game. We were all nervous for you but Im like na shes got this one- and it was great I hope that wasnt a first and last thing because you’ve got to do that again…bravo gurl bravo