A couple months ago when I was desparately seeking approval from other “bloggers” I got offended when one of them told me mine is very text heavy and it looks like a book. I took that as being a bad thing. While I don’t presume this person said that just to hurt me and instead he was being honest and critical, I couldn’t help but feel a bit of a sting. Although I didn’t show any face, inside I was injured that my honest entries were not appealling enough to read because they were too long.

Essentially everything I write is about me so I was a little hurt that my lengthy explanations were unappreciated. I write the only way I know how and I figure as long as I did that I could be happy. Whether people begin to follow or fall away was not, and still isn’t my main concern.

Today I know I was wrong for thinking that way. I was wrong for feeling insulted because there really wasn’t anything to be upset about. I didn’t start this thing so people could like me. I started this so I could become more comfortable with myself by opening up through my poems, song choices, videos and any other way I feel to express myself. My intentions were not to please anyone or become popular.

So I intend on holding onto that because no matter what I do not everyone is going to like it. Not too long ago someone reaLLy honest once told me,

I’ve been repeating that in my head ever since I received it because if I can’t be myself it’s really not worth it to try and be anyone else. This “blog” is about my journey. It’s about my growth.

However I don’t want the opposite to happen. If anyone has anything to say that I might not agree with DO NOT hesitate to say it. This person’s words helped me in a way I didn’t see at first. So thank you for that. I’m not here for people to fill my head with everything “right” and “positive” because like Kanye West said,

With all of that being said I hope all of you have a flynamic long weekend. Summer is “unofficially” here!! Go have a drink somewhere and enjoy the beginning of the middle of the year.

Peace.
Crystal Clear.

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